hours till *go time*...

Here’s some actual news : the 18th and the 19th (and 24th) I’m going to be at Borders, gift wrapping. It’s for donations to pay for my stem cell transplant. (Yes, it still needs to be paid…) Granted most of it is paid for! Thank you Lordy Lordy!!! But I think all that I need left is the medications, and the rest of the extras.

I love wrapping presents! My mother used to help Santa wrap and that woman does all this fancy bending and folding – you had moral dilemmas ripping that sucker open. When we visited family – her wrapping job was always outside of the ring of gifts, last to be opened… I honestly don’t think we gave the greatest gifts but they looked fantastic!
If you know me – you also know I love giving presents! I love that surprised expression of “*Natasha*, if you don’t stop this you’ll have exactly 2 cents in your bank account and I don’t have any money to give you later!” It’s always little stuff – the better I know you – the better the stuff… (I hope!) People are so responsive to small gestures. I hope when I’m rich someday – I’ll be a member of several museums, public zoos, and an upstanding member of The Lupus Foundation. (We all have our causes.) Next year for christamas, I just want to warn those people who are here I’m going to do something completely unheard of… okay – so of course it’s HEARD of… BUT ~! *oh* nevermind….
- No, it won’t be jumping, naked, out of a cake! *sheesh* some people….

Tomorrow, if God wills it, I’m going to meet John. Here is something cute for all you cute people… We both have aohell… *duh* and you can talk through your computers to each other – he’s even got a video camera on his. I get to be a voyeur and watch him – he can only hear me *EVIL LAUGH*… so when we’re awake enough to notice our computers have these features, we use them. *lol* I have to get a web cam… I’m going shopping for one after x.mas…..now if my parents get a faster internet connection I'll be the happy.ist

For all you – Connecticut compadres, it’s cold today. Nice. Your missing it! ((I wonder how cold it is over there?)) I miss you guys to bits!!!!

- my littest sister just said the greatest "Lovesong" ever was depressing.... she doesn't like it....
....well.... that is IT~!.... she's getting her eyebrows shaved off in the middle of night.....*innocent grin*

I spent all morning adding these *away messages8 to my screen name!

..because it is the ones with the sorest throats, *Tasha*, who have done the most singing. Everybody!
La La La La La La La La La Lah...

i wanna smash the faces
of those beautiful boys
those christian boys
so you can make me cum
that doesn't make you Jesus

...circumstances afford me no second chance to tell you how much I've missed you...

...I want to take you far from the cynics in this town,
And kiss you on the mouth...

i'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep... you won't have to strain to look into my eyes...

- and he kissed me in a style that clark gable would have admired (I thought it classic)

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd...

and i have to speculate that God himself did make us into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces from the clay true, it may seem like a stretch, but its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away when i am missing You to death

i am thinking it's a sign that the freckles in our eyes are mirror images and when we kiss they're perfectly aligned ... true, it may seem like a stretch, but its thoughts like this that catch my troubled head when you're away when i am missing You to death

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...all from various artists, various songs...!!!

Something interesting my children...

I was talking with Him till 4:30 in the morning....

(I was also told by a passer by that if a guy talks on the phone with a girl for more than 30 min. - he likes her...)

I think I may have convinced him to come Thursday, with me, to Universal. That would be the 16th - I think....

and Pepe the Prawn is one of the greatest charecters ever...

He said there is always an inevitable fall. He thinks I'm the inevitable.

The only way to convince someone of something your not is, just, not to be.

Nothing about me is inevitable.
I'm glad it isn't. I have nothing to be worried about.
I'm a girl though, my mind is racing. Indy 500 style ~ circles - fast... if something happens... EXPLOSION! *ka-blammo*

I know he's worries about something though I really don't know what it is. He's either thinking - *oh great another one!* - or - he's hiding something. Could possible be either...
because I'm not another one, my mind immediately goes to he's hiding something... and we all know that's horrible and stupid of me... *but I can't help it!!!*

...the sad part is I'm laughing at the stupidity of the situation. He hasn't told me about it and I don't ask... *HA HA HA HA HA*.....
Also, if you know me, I have a wild imagination - so when my mind wonders - watch out!
Don't worry - I don't take myself to seriously...

"I get my whiskey from a well....." .........*whistle whistle*....