So yes - I'm going to talk about *Eric.*

*Eric* is a little known fact in my sordid affairs. I've know *Eric* for years before I met *Ryan.* I had a stint with this fellow.

He lived far away. (But still within hours.) He had no ambition, except this wrestling thing which bugged the SHIT out of me. I can almost go as far as to say when he put his mind to it he could outstory *Christian* NOT COMPLEATLY *Eric*'s were longer and what he wrote to me... He wrote to ME. The entire time I was with *Ryan* - *Eric* was still going after me. He still seems to be ~ I told him about the breakup and he was ready to kick some ass but still shimmering with the fact maybe maybe maybe....

Actually I really like *Eric* but...

yah - but

no ambition. And this fucking kills me. I can't deal with sitting on your ass wasting your talents 'cause this kid is very talented. Very. He's cute. Needs a haircut cause he's a damn hippie. A really big football player looking hippie. He's a gemini. Maybe he's just the male version of me? He's very nice. (I hope I'm nice.) Creative. Loves to roleplay. (What you didn't know I liked to roleplay?) And his sex drive even mirrors mine... the stint remember..... but I care to much about the future to re-stint with this *Eric*.

He thinks I should worry to much.

By the way he makes me lauph. (And that's what is really important here. Why else would I dedicate almost a whole blog to him?!)

We'll stay friends - that I know. But the sexual tension darlings is to die for ~ !

He needs to find true happiness and I told him I'd use my star tonight for him. I'm going to wish for his true happiness. I'm going to do this on the night of the lunar eclipse. (Tonight)

Half of the thing is this whole transplant I had... I was going to die. I knew I was going to die. Now I feel...

Now I know I'm going to live forever.

Actually, I don't know what that has to do with anything but - at the same time - I'm looking at things differently. Everyone around me is convinced of me. Of what I do and don't do and how I am. I think everyone is in for a shock. Something is in the works...

I'm in the works....